brave.
pneumonia, a massive hive that took over my face, flu, food poisoning, colds, 1 infections that i got twice, 2 trips to urgent care, and the stomach flu.
all illnesses i’ve had in the past 6 months.
when i got married i told sam that if i ever got a terminal illness, to just let me go. what i meant was: i am a wimp. i am not a fighter. when i get a headache i pop a few aspirin. when i went into labor and the nurses asked me if i wanted medicine i said, ” yes, please. NOW. thank you.” i am no superwoman. every time i get sick i have this thought, “i would rather DIE than feel like this!” (i told you i was a wimp). since i have been continuously infected with illnesses this year, i have had to seriously toughen up. and this last bout with the stomach flu was proof… i didn’t have that thought once! you heard me: not.even.once!! this was a definite accomplishment in my mind.
so i told sam. and his response, “wow, you are getting more brave.” (i sensed a slight sarcastic tone in his voice)
to which i replied: “i AM brave!” (i say like a 4 year old who just went down a big slide for the first time, standing proudly in a superman stance)
he interrupts my victory dance by saying, “I said more brave. not brave.”
thanks for always putting me in my place. kind of annoying, but i appreciate it.
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to anyone who ever asks me what i actually do all day as a -stay at home- mom, i will kindly direct them to this post.
(piles of laundry)
(lunch)
(finger painting)
(cleaning up from finger painting)
(frozen yogurt. which is kind of a bribe, i mean, incentive for our next outing)
(haircut. thank you great clips, it was delightful.)
(quick trip to vons. i know. totally gross. i promise i put my camera away and took care of this situation)
(rest time. if you know me, you know i LOVE chick-fil-a. & daddy was proud about his book selection)
(a starbucks client meeting with the wonderful gracie & david)
(ran over to church to see Sam teach a fantastic seminar. love this man!)
kids asleep and laundry folded. can’t wait to do it all again tomorrow. my future frightens me. i can’t think long term.. just gotta get through today.
maybe i need to grow more brave in all areas of my life.
to all the moms out there, “how do you do this??? raise kids and not feel crazy? a little help please!??”
by anjuli
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